It's so weird turning into an adult, I sometimes don't even know what to make of it. For example, a friend of mine a year ago, I took him to a highlighter party and I see on facebook that he got married last week. We're 21? Since when do people meet someone, get engaged, and married in one year? About 2 years ago, my then bf, thought we'd be engaged by this summer... now I can't even imagine even thinking of something like that? Everyday, I feel like I learn so much about myself, who I am and what I want to do. I can't imagine having anyone thinking they want to spend the rest of their lives with me... I mean I don't think I even know me that well, but I'm stuck with me.

They say that college is a coming-of-age period, where you learn about yourself. However, the truth is, I've learned just as much in the last six months at home, then my whole three years at USD. I've learned so much about adapting to people, families (mine and my friends), corporations, and work places. Some of my friends and my mother, think I should transfer to USF. It would actually be fairly simple and two of my best friends are coming back to Marin in the spring. However, this is conflicting because for financial reasons it would make sense to still live at home. If I did this would it be a smarter decision? Or would I be holding myself back? Is it a cop-out to stay or cop-out to go back to SD?

Things are really in a weird place for me.