McVets Leaving

Do you remember your first love? I think everyone does... I was so young and naive my freshman and sophomore year of college. I'd never wanted anyone good for me or cared about me and had to be convinced by my close friends that he was worth the risk. Tomorrow he leaves off into his big blue future and I realize I'm just a number of weeks until I'm done with this place here. I'm not going to lie and say college was the best years of my life, cause it wasn't. College for me was a lot of changes, the experience of death, the development of anxiety, learning how to love, learning how to lose, learning the friendships you make here are incomparable to home etc. It's just wierd that its all ending you know? The person who held my hand through the death of a close friend, may never be seen again after a move crosscountry and a new career. This is the end of the beginning or the beginning of something new and even though I'm so excited, I've always had issues with the fact that time keeps moving forward. All of my dreams, I had back my sophomore year and have been revised and replaced with new bigger more inspired notions and that makes me excited. Years ago, I would have thought I would be moving to the middle of nowhere to do nothing but be married, but now I'm moving to a great big city away from the people I care about to do something that I can feel proud about. He's different, and I'm different and I'm glad things ended when they did because we would have never had those experiences that shaped us after. I learned how to rebuild, how to love again, and how to be more open to the world around me and less judgmental. What I've learned over the last 4 1/2 years, is life is short and loving is important, but it's about following your own dreams to make you happy not somebody elses.