However, when you sit across from the person who made you and are completely amazed by their own selfishness and lack of empathy for their fellow human being, it really makes you think. I mean really, how do you grow up with someone in the same environment and share genes with this person and sit across from them and feel completely disconnected from them? More so, upon feeling that disconnect, I felt a sense of relief, that she and I were not the same, really, in anyway.
The conflict arose at a local outback steakhouse. I wanted to tip the elderly waitress an extra two dollars more from my own pocket while someone else felt the need to tip the bare minimum. It wasn't much in my mind, two dollars, it was the principle. However, the other person whom I was with through a tantrum about "how I shouldn't try and be the savior to all the servers in the world". To give this story perspective the tip was always going to remain under ten dollars to begin with.
The issue is I don't think I will ever understand this person for whom I share genes. Oftentimes, I find customers in both my jobs and other peoples families who act more maternal to me and do things for me not expecting retribution but out of love. I try and live my life out of this spirit. To try and be kind and be more giving then selfish. Kind of the whole pay it forward thing. I believe in committing more random acts of kindness each day. Maybe I am naive, maybe I am young and I will grow jaded with age. But I hope to try and make those around have better days, every single day. Not just people I love, but strangers and acquaintances as well. I try and live my life on the doctrine of karma, and although I have done some bad things in my past. I hope to live each day forward in the spirit of love.
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